Saturday, November 5, 2011

One of Those Days

Today is one of those days....

One of those days when I kind of (just kind of) wish I was living in the states again.

I'm feeling anxious.

Feeling ready for a change.

I miss the comforts that good friends and family provide.

This feeling hasn't been around for a while; in fact, it's been a few years since I remember feeling it.

I remember how strong it was when I first moved here; how I longed to get coffee with the girls, or see the ocean. How much I daydreamed about owning a house in a peaceful neighborhood with trees lining the streets.

Don't get me wrong, there are many things I love about living in Mexico City. I have a good job that is challenging and stretching (albeit, exhausting). I have a nanny... yeah, a nanny. Definitely wouldn't have one of those in the states.

My daughter is growing up truly bilingual and we are all, as a family, understanding another culture because we are living it.

Those are all good things.

Really good things.

But, still, I can't help but miss those comforts.

The friends, the coffee, the quiet neighborhood, the family.... and maybe a Target run every now and then.

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I was listening to some Sufjan Stevens the other day and his version of Come Thou Fount Came on.

I listened as I heard him sing...

"Come thou fount of every blessing, tune my heart to sing thy praise."

Immediately I grabbed a post-it and wrote those words down and stuck it on my computer. I just needed to see them in writing, needed them to be some place close.

On those days; one of those days, I just need to see it, you know?

See those words. Really hear those words, take them in.

I am blessed and my response should be one of praise.

Not wishing, not daydreaming, but being truly present in the now.

Because how sad to miss the now... the stuff good stuff that's happening in this moment, not in the future, but as I type this.

RIGHT NOW.

Come thou fount of every blessing

Please, oh please, tune my heart to sing thy praise.

                                                                       My blessings




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